Today I feel sad. Perhaps, a little upset too. Some people are just so rude that you just cannot help but think how can they actually manage to be so god-damn rude! Anyways, I am trying to just cheer myself up but it's just one of those days when nothing seems to be going your way. I just want this day to end and tomorrow to come.

Diwali is round the corner. I do not have any plans for the festival per se, but would just love to chillax that day at home although I wonder how much sound pollution this day is going to bring with it. Sometimes, the loud bangs of the fire-crackers get really really excruciating for the ears and the lungs to bear (the smoke). Anyways, since it's a "festival", it will be celebrated with gusto. Not that I have any issues with it, it's just that the kind of pollution that single day sees is overwhelming, really.

Anyways, it's 5:13pm now, 15 minutes more to go and I am off from work which would be the best thing that would've happened the whole day today. I will go to pick up Princess to her office and then, let's see where can I take her. I love to spend time with her. She is wonderful, although a little too quiet than what I would like her to be. Nonetheless, the fact that she loves me so much, understands me beautifully and is so GOD-AWESOMELY romantic just makes up for everything else!

Ahh! This day, oh, this day..Just pass by...Please...

Today, I am a little upset. I do not quite know the reason why but I am not feeling happy, so to say. Probably, something is wrong, probably something ain't wrong but that's the way I am feeling right now. I guess we do not feel the same everyday.
But, I just don't like to be upset or sad, I love to laugh, to joke, to talk a lot. But today is just not my day, it seems. Moreover, the weather since last evening has been gloomy as well. Not that I am complaining, since it's been raining cats and dogs and I love the rains - I love to get wet in it, I love shivering when the cold winds hit my wet body, but perhaps, it's been so gloomy that somewhere our moods get affected by it... Perhaps...I don't really know.

Moon has been another thing that has been bothering me since the last couple of days. I just didn't want to see her at the g2g but of course she was there with her boy-friend - the great Ken! I mean, I feel happy the way I am, but she has just jeopardized my whole life. Anyone I meet (my friend, that is), the first thing he/ she asks is how are we guys (me & Moon) doing...I'm tired of this...But then, people will ask since they have always seen us together, they know that we are "one"..It's just that it's over for long now and people (both me & her) have moved on which our friends and families need to understand and more importantly, accept.

I've been complaining a lot I guess. It's not that I don't love what I have. I am pretty content with myself but I think there is perhaps "something" that's been ravishing me since the past few days; that's been just troubling me. I would just love to know the reason why I am upset this morning but I guess as the day passes by, I will be alright. Well, at least I hope I get back to my usual self.

I also met Princess last evening after about 3 days of not meeting at all, and needless to say, I absolutely loved it. I was waiting at the Lajpat Nagar bus stand (as usual) and I caught a glimpse of her from far off. And I was absolutely flattered all over again! I mean she just looks so lovely. I love her like perhaps, I did not even loved Moon. Yes, I do find her really good. She is so cool and calm that sometimes she might come across as non-chalant but she sure knows what's happening around her, all the time. She is a little kiddish, yes, but that is something that I love. I love the way she talks to me, I love the way she looks at me, I love the way we walk hand-in-hand, I love the way she smells, I love the way she sometimes gets irritated while arrangine her hairs, I love the way we get wet in the rains and then shiver; basically, I love everything about "us".. :-)

Okay, I guess, I must get back to work now. As it is, I get lost in thoughts whenever I think of Princess, because she is just so lovely that I just cannot help but think about her time and time again. This feeling is just lovely - this mushy, romantic feeling. I just want to be with her, spend time with her; I want to talk to her for hours on end on anything and everything - from something fruitful to perhaps some of the most idiotic things, to something real naughty...

Ahh! Enough - for now, that is! ;-) ;-)

-Cheers ( I feel better already - Even the thought of Princess just cheers me up)...

Another of those vehement claims of the so called one of the best Police forces -  the Delhi Police were blown to smithereens - literally! These recent blasts in Delhi are a testament to the fact on how secure we, the common people are. The terrorists strike as and when they feel like and who are at the receiving end - we, people who do not have to do absolutely ANYTHING with this so called 'jehad' (independence)..
I was at the Central Park, Connaught Place on Saturday evening, but we left at about 6'o clock in the evening, and at about 6:15pm or so the blast took place. We were really lucky that we were safe and sound but what about the others who have lost their loved ones, their near and dear ones? I cannot even imagine the sight at that lovely, serene park after the blast - my heart just cried out loud when I received a phone call from my friend asking me where I was. On hearing the news of the blasts, I was absolutely shocked; so shocked that I had to disconnect his call and sit down, and take the news in..

People cannot even go freely where they want to without feeling a sense of insecurity. Although CCTVs and metal detectors seem to have been installed at quite some places in Delhi, but I am not sure how many of them actually work. I don't know about the CCTV cameras but the metal detectors sure DO NOT work; they are simply turned off, which is absolutely unacceptable in the first place. Why the hell are they still there, then? Just remove them! This really pisses me off; I mean our Government, the Police, no one seems to even care about the security of the common public - everyone is on their own, which actually will be the case from now on, I believe.

We all must be responsible for our own safety. With a handful of security personnel manning the malls, the cinema halls, the markets and all the other various important and busy/ crowded places in the country (let alone the National Capital), it is us - the common man, who should be vigilant. Only then, I believe this menace can be dealt with, although I do not know whether these strikes would ever completely stop or not...I am not here to debate the unfleeching topic of terrorism - rather, I am just writing what I thought and felt that evening, and what I feel right now, at this moment sitting in my cubicle in front of the monitor of my PC and thinking back about the happenings.

We were either plain lucky or God was looking upon us. Else, I would've surely been on the list, stuck somewhere around a hospital wall - I would've been on the casualty list.

Sometimes life plays "games" - games which I for one fail to totally understand. I mean, I thought and I know for a fact that I am in love with "K" and she is in love with me too. Although she have had a past relationship, but she clearly mentioned it to both her ex, and to me that it was her past and it's surely not gonna haunt our relationship. And the kind of person I am, I obviously trusted her on this.

Now, suddenly, this past love interest of hers is calling her, msging her; basically pestering her with his talks. The major cause of their break-up was that this guy was not committed towards her. He had clearly mentioned that he cannot get married to her; God knows the reasons! I mean, if you love someone, then why can't you get married to him/ her. This is simply out of my purview. Anyways, that was that. I, inspite of knowing her past (whatever little past she has had), I totally accepted her because I love her and she loves me too (this, I know for a fact)..

Last night, as usual, i msgd her, but there was no reply from her side. This morning she msgd and told me that her ex had called her last night (again); and this time he is asking her to come back to him as he is ready to commit, get married to her and stuff. But, this time she has clearly told him that she doesn't want to get married to him as she does not feel the same for him anymore. But, even then, he is just pestering her, irritating her to bits.

I could've helped her in some way in this, but she says she can handle him herself and I didn't want to force anything upon her. But, this kind of hurts. I mean, I love her and someone else is trying to woo her towards him and stuff; this makes me furious and makes me a little sad as well. Frankly speaking, somewhere deep, down inside I am inherently scared of getting hurt yet again and I don't think I would be able to bear it a second time over. I mean, what the heck; are these heart-breaks just pre-written by God keeping me in mind or something? This is ridiculous; this just can't happen.

Anyways, I have totally stopped forcing things, because I know for a fact that the more you force something, the more it goes away from you; the more you try to pull someone/ something towards you, the more that person/ thing would push you away (the theory of push-pull or something, who knows!!)...Whatever has happened has happened for good, i guess, and whatever will happen will also happen for the better. Atleast, that's what I think although I don't quite know I believe in this saying or not.

Nevertheless, life and it's games will continue till the time we are on this earth, i believe. Ahh! Life and it's marvelous games...